Sometimes a sermon really gets to me and today I heard one of those sermons – it was straight to the point, no candy coating, and hit home in places I wasn’t quite ready to explore… yet I’m needing to explore… so I’m typing my thoughts out I can get a better grasp of them.
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Starting over in 2009
Posted in angry, boundaries, change, coping, crochet, faith, friends, guilt, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, privacy, recovery, relationships, self-injury, self-worth, shame, stress, suicide, understanding, work, tagged Bible, cell phone, compassion, emergency room, future, grace, love, mistakes, scars, smile, stitches, vote on December 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
What the heck I’ve been up to…
Posted in braces, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, frustrated, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, recovery, relationships, scared, self-injury, stress, suicide, unemployed, work, tagged bills, cleaning, friendship, grocery store, new job, profanity, roommate, stitches on December 11, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Yeah, well… I’m a changed woman! My life has been more of a whirlwind these last few months than much of anything else. Not totally sure what to make of the mess I have made and others have made, but I’m trying to turn that around and focus a little more on faith.
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Between hell and hell
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, anxiety, bulimia, change, crochet, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, faith, finances, food, friends, honesty, self-injury, shame, sick, stress, suicide, tired, unemployed, work, tagged abandoned, cutting, fear, God, hell, job, obesity, starve, trust, vomit on September 3, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m unemployed, at least that is how I view myself (minus the grocery store), and I don’t know what I can do to change this situation — besides working at dead end positions with idiots!
When I came home last night, I literally collapsed and wanted to sob… and I did in fact cry. I [...]
Positive thinking – why?
Posted in church, crochet, discouraged, faith, friends, self-injury, sleep, stress, suicide, tagged afghan, belief, extrinsic, God, hope, introvert, job hunt, motivation, self-injury, sleep, suicide, wake up on August 13, 2008 | 5 Comments »
I got an email from a friend where she shared with me her new motivation for getting up in the morning. Yes, her reason is faith related. It makes sense and appears to apply to her life, at least the life she shows to others. I also happen to know for a [...]
More about self-injury and ME… (graphic)
Posted in angry, anxiety, boundaries, control, coping, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, faith, family, feelings, friends, frustrated, honesty, self hate, self-injury, self-mutilation, stress, suicide, tagged control, coping, cutter, cutting, feelings, out of control, scars, secrets, self-injury, void on July 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I’m not proud of the fact that I hurt myself intentionally. In fact, I hate the fact I do this to myself. It not only hurts my physical being, but my mental and spiritual – not to mention every cut with my razor blade takes a slice out of my emotional stablity, making [...]
I am tired of refraining for everyone else (graphic)
Posted in angry, anxiety, avoidance, change, control, coping, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, exhausted, family, feelings, food, friends, hugs, pain, privacy, self-injury, self-mutilation, stress, suicide, weight, tagged bathing suit, binging, cutting, expectations, obligations, perfection, recovery, scars, secrets, self-harm, self-injury, support system on July 28, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Self-injury is how I cope – end of story.
I am tired of refraining from the behavior any longer just because it has become “expected of me”. I haven’t cut in over 6months, therefore I am not SUPPOSED to cut ever again. I have bought a swimsuit and I have a friend who was [...]
