When I don’t write, it usually means I’m doing rather poorly… and when I do come back to write, it usually means the tide has turned. Today, right now, at this very moment – yes this is true.
- My friend lost her mom a couple of weeks ago.
- A former coworker of mine died [...]
Archive for the ‘pain’ Category
Life has not been fair lately…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, change, depressed, faith, friends, gratitude, honesty, love, pain, recovery, sick, stress, tired, work, tagged anger, Christian, fever, paralegal, sponsor, writing on January 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
A new trigger…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, church, control, coping, faith, fuck off, guilt, honesty, lessons learned, pain, recovery, relationships, self-injury, self-mutilation, shame, stress, tired, tagged AA, blood, celebration, church, cutter, emergency room, grace, scars, self-harm, stitches, vagina on October 26, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It has been one hell of a past three weeks and now I’m almost not sure what to do because well, it appears as though fertility is my latest trigger – actually, it has to do with the blood my body is passing as result of me not getting pregnant this month. I cannot [...]
Randomness
Posted in TMJ, crochet, exhausted, friends, frustrated, pain, sleep, stress, yarn, tagged blisters, cross, crosses, dry heaves, fair, feet, hands, laundry, learning, wrists on September 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I have worked 24 of the last 48 hours. I’m exhausted. I have blisters on my feet and my wrists BOTH hurt badly.
New job is awesome. Lots and lots and lots and lots to learn. I’m happy working there, yet still feeling apprehension over the entire situation. I’m [...]
Why I haven’t blogged…
Posted in angry, annoyed, church, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, friends, guilt, honesty, hugs, insomnia, loneliness, pain, relationships, scared, self hate, self-confidence, self-esteem, self-injury, shame, sick, sleep, stress, tired, understanding, work, yarn, tagged Aflac, ankle, bitch, blessings, Casting Crowns, checker, chronic pain, cross, evicted, fair, flooding, flu, fuck off, glasses, groceries, moody, pissed off, praise, Race for the Cure, rain, relay, sacker, schedule, Texas Tech, wrist on September 14, 2008 | 1 Comment »
… is relatively simple – I’ve been in a pissed off, angry at the f-ing world mood. Stress is killing me… but I haven’t cut since the day I got fired from Relay, so I have actually accomplished SOMETHING positive, maybe?!
Clearing crap up with Relay on Monday wasn’t the best of all ways to [...]
Hard time
Posted in angry, anxiety, avoidance, coping, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, family, feelings, food, friends, frustrated, pain, self-injury, stress, unemployed, work, tagged ashamed, cutter, depressed, fired, hard, secrets, struggling, upset on August 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yup, the title pretty much sums things up right now. Not doing too hot, great, or even so-so. Just trying to pull myself around by my hair and pretend everything is “hunky dory”. No, I am not okay. No, I have not told many people about it and I don’t know [...]
Jet-lag
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, anxiety, avoidance, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, friends, frustrated, fuck off, pain, school, sleep, stress, teaching, weight, work, writing, tagged bully, career, carpal tunnel, day, denial, depressed, diet, education, fair, graduate school, greatest virtue, grocery store, guys, jet lag, job interview, night, orthodontist, patience, physical space, powerade, practice, references, relay, sleeping, talk, wrist on August 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I haven’t been writing or responding to comments – muchless been reading other people’s blogs, so don’t take it too personally. I haven’t been sleeping either. I haven’t been doing much besides spinning my mental wheels. It is taking a lot out of me to even sit down and attempt to write [...]
