I need distance right now. I’m in a “freak out mode” and I’m feeling myself lock up within my skin. I’m not able to respond to what my sponsor has posted in response to things I have posted… and I don’t feel as though I can write to her about what is going [...]
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Distance
Posted in boundaries, coping, friends, fuck off, honesty, loneliness, privacy, recovery, relationships, scared, self hate, self-injury, self-mutilation, shame, tagged AA, anger, cutting, fuck it, invisible, looney bin, mental hospital, secret, sponsor, stitches on February 10, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Why I haven’t blogged…
Posted in angry, annoyed, church, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, friends, guilt, honesty, hugs, insomnia, loneliness, pain, relationships, scared, self hate, self-confidence, self-esteem, self-injury, shame, sick, sleep, stress, tired, understanding, work, yarn, tagged Aflac, ankle, bitch, blessings, Casting Crowns, checker, chronic pain, cross, evicted, fair, flooding, flu, fuck off, glasses, groceries, moody, pissed off, praise, Race for the Cure, rain, relay, sacker, schedule, Texas Tech, wrist on September 14, 2008 | 1 Comment »
… is relatively simple – I’ve been in a pissed off, angry at the f-ing world mood. Stress is killing me… but I haven’t cut since the day I got fired from Relay, so I have actually accomplished SOMETHING positive, maybe?!
Clearing crap up with Relay on Monday wasn’t the best of all ways to [...]
2 Years
Posted in TMJ, angry, annoyed, anxiety, braces, church, damon brackets, deaf, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, finances, friends, frustrated, fuck off, guilt, honesty, hugs, loneliness, orthodontics, relationships, scared, school, self-injury, self-mutilation, self-worth, shame, stress, teaching, tired, unemployed, weight, tagged anniversary, apartment, cutting, fat, fear, hope, roommmate, skinny, writing on September 5, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I moved into my apartment 2yrs ago.
I started the job I no longer have, 2yrs ago.
I was skinny 2yrs ago.
I was relieved 2yrs ago.
I had a roommate 2yrs ago.
I was hopeful 2yrs ago.
I’m still in the same apartment now.
I no longer have the same job.
I’m really FAT now.
I am scared to death now.
I live alone, [...]
Short, quick, to the point, brief… yup…
Posted in Damon System, braces, coping, crochet, faith, family, feelings, food, friends, frustrated, loneliness, orthodontics, recovery, sick, sleep, stress, work, tagged braces, brackets, fear, femur, fracture, fraile, hair cut, humbug, phone call, relay, self-injury on June 10, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
My great-grandmother has a DOUBLE break in her femur. No news as to what will be done except that she has transferred hospitals and that SOMETHING will have to be done, there is no choice but to change the current situation. She can’t live with a double fracture.
I need to get my long [...]
My mid-night
Posted in feelings, friends, loneliness, love, sleep, stress, tagged comfort, distress, friends, love, needs, prayer, purpose, sleep, value, worry on May 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I need to be sleeping, but I just can’t seem to stay sleeping. I can barely nap, despite being physically exhausted. I am awake with worry, distress, and loneliness. I cannot seem to find comfort. I cannot seem to make comfort. Food, blankets, distraction — nothing works. I need [...]
Very torn inside
Posted in faith, loneliness, stress, work, tagged faith, God, sadness on March 19, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I am really struggling. I hate my job, well the working nights part of it, and life in general is just getting to me. I feel very alone.
I read and talked most of the night last night. I am reading The Purpose Driven Life and I am getting a lot out of it, yet I [...]
