I need distance right now. I’m in a “freak out mode” and I’m feeling myself lock up within my skin. I’m not able to respond to what my sponsor has posted in response to things I have posted… and I don’t feel as though I can write to her about what is going [...]
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Distance
Posted in boundaries, coping, friends, fuck off, honesty, loneliness, privacy, recovery, relationships, scared, self hate, self-injury, self-mutilation, shame, tagged AA, anger, cutting, fuck it, invisible, looney bin, mental hospital, secret, sponsor, stitches on February 10, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
My little annoyances…
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, bulimia, eating disorder, food, fuck off, tagged fake, immature, password, protect on December 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Humpf… I had to make a rational decision today – to password protect the most *popular* entry in my journal because the fine print wasn’t being respected, muchless read, by the desperate assholes reading and following it like a book.
I don’t like to password protect ANYTHING on this blog. I would rather password [...]
A new trigger…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, church, control, coping, faith, fuck off, guilt, honesty, lessons learned, pain, recovery, relationships, self-injury, self-mutilation, shame, stress, tired, tagged AA, blood, celebration, church, cutter, emergency room, grace, scars, self-harm, stitches, vagina on October 26, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It has been one hell of a past three weeks and now I’m almost not sure what to do because well, it appears as though fertility is my latest trigger – actually, it has to do with the blood my body is passing as result of me not getting pregnant this month. I cannot [...]
2 Years
Posted in TMJ, angry, annoyed, anxiety, braces, church, damon brackets, deaf, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, finances, friends, frustrated, fuck off, guilt, honesty, hugs, loneliness, orthodontics, relationships, scared, school, self-injury, self-mutilation, self-worth, shame, stress, teaching, tired, unemployed, weight, tagged anniversary, apartment, cutting, fat, fear, hope, roommmate, skinny, writing on September 5, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I moved into my apartment 2yrs ago.
I started the job I no longer have, 2yrs ago.
I was skinny 2yrs ago.
I was relieved 2yrs ago.
I had a roommate 2yrs ago.
I was hopeful 2yrs ago.
I’m still in the same apartment now.
I no longer have the same job.
I’m really FAT now.
I am scared to death now.
I live alone, [...]
Bye bye Relay
Posted in angry, annoyed, anxiety, avoidance, change, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, friends, frustrated, fuck off, gratitude, lessons learned, scared, self-injury, sick, stress, unemployed, work, tagged alone, depressed, finances, fired, frightened, job, relay, terminated on August 28, 2008 | 3 Comments »
I lost my job today.
Jet-lag
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, anxiety, avoidance, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, friends, frustrated, fuck off, pain, school, sleep, stress, teaching, weight, work, writing, tagged bully, career, carpal tunnel, day, denial, depressed, diet, education, fair, graduate school, greatest virtue, grocery store, guys, jet lag, job interview, night, orthodontist, patience, physical space, powerade, practice, references, relay, sleeping, talk, wrist on August 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I haven’t been writing or responding to comments – muchless been reading other people’s blogs, so don’t take it too personally. I haven’t been sleeping either. I haven’t been doing much besides spinning my mental wheels. It is taking a lot out of me to even sit down and attempt to write [...]
