I need distance right now. I’m in a “freak out mode” and I’m feeling myself lock up within my skin. I’m not able to respond to what my sponsor has posted in response to things I have posted… and I don’t feel as though I can write to her about what is going [...]
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Distance
Posted in boundaries, coping, friends, fuck off, honesty, loneliness, privacy, recovery, relationships, scared, self hate, self-injury, self-mutilation, shame, tagged AA, anger, cutting, fuck it, invisible, looney bin, mental hospital, secret, sponsor, stitches on February 10, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Week from hell…
Posted in angry, anxiety, boundaries, braces, control, faith, friends, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, recovery, relationships, self-injury, work, tagged debanding, emotions, Friday, God, hell, hygenist, Monday, music, orthodontist, pink eye, powerchains, sponsor, Sunday, telephone, Thursday, Tuesday, Wednesday on February 7, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
My last entry was actually a draft that I wrote up mid-week and thought I would publish — it makes me laugh now that I look at it/ read it! It was written on Wednesday, I think, as that was the first day I left work in complete tears… threatening to never come back [...]
Life has not been fair lately…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, change, depressed, faith, friends, gratitude, honesty, love, pain, recovery, sick, stress, tired, work, tagged anger, Christian, fever, paralegal, sponsor, writing on January 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
When I don’t write, it usually means I’m doing rather poorly… and when I do come back to write, it usually means the tide has turned. Today, right now, at this very moment – yes this is true.
- My friend lost her mom a couple of weeks ago.
- A former coworker of mine died [...]
Finding a little hope here and there
Posted in coping, eating disorder, faith, friends, honesty, lessons learned, recovery, self-injury, tagged conversation, divine intervention, evidence, faith, grace, hope, humility, introspective, journey, logic, love, motive, obedience, process, reason, understanding, victory on January 2, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
The conversation I had this morning with K. was hopeful and encouraging. We spoke of uncomfortable matters and silly things and dreams and aspriations and hopes. She brought up a few situations where I felt uncomfortable and I am almost positive I did the same for her, yet we somehow worked through it… [...]
Wow
Posted in faith, friends, gratitude, honesty, tagged blessings, friendship, God, receive, silence, unexpected on January 2, 2009 | 1 Comment »
All I can say is “WOW”… I wasn’t expecting what I was blessed to receive today. I learned a lot through a conversation with a friend… and we talked about faith. Wow!
Quick lunch – not eating – blah
Posted in angry, anorexia, control, coping, food, friends, honesty, weight, work, tagged death, drinking water, druink, exercise, fat, hunger, law office, lunch, New Year's Eve, promotion, RSD, stomach, stupidity on December 31, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I came home on lunch rather than sitting in the break room. My mind is spinning, my thighs feel fat, and I’m starving. I’m doing pretty well with the no gluten and no soda’s while at work; water is even going down easier. Quiet time hasn’t really happened much besides listening to [...]
Starting over in 2009
Posted in angry, boundaries, change, coping, crochet, faith, friends, guilt, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, privacy, recovery, relationships, self-injury, self-worth, shame, stress, suicide, understanding, work, tagged Bible, cell phone, compassion, emergency room, future, grace, love, mistakes, scars, smile, stitches, vote on December 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Sometimes a sermon really gets to me and today I heard one of those sermons – it was straight to the point, no candy coating, and hit home in places I wasn’t quite ready to explore… yet I’m needing to explore… so I’m typing my thoughts out I can get a better grasp of them.
According [...]
