… and how I often feel like I don’t have a real mom. I have ladies in my life who have played the part here and there, but I’ve never really had a mom. I’m grateful for those who have come and gone in my life and have helped in this way, but [...]
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Thinking about “moms”
Posted in angry, depressed, family, friends, honesty, hugs, love, relationships, tagged abuse, birth, bond, brother, connection, foster care, grandparents, massage therapy, mental illness, mom, mother, needs, sister, smoking, victim, women on December 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Upside down Christmas Tree
Posted in faith, family, gratitude, love, tagged Christmas, Christmas tree, gift, holidays, presents, upside down Christmas tree on December 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
…that is what I feel like right now – totally out of place, eccentric, and that I leave people whispering or speechless.
This tree, I guess, was desiged so people could put more of what is “important” underneath – presents – yet I believe it totally takes away from the reason for the season. Christmas [...]
Hard time
Posted in angry, anxiety, avoidance, coping, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, family, feelings, food, friends, frustrated, pain, self-injury, stress, unemployed, work, tagged ashamed, cutter, depressed, fired, hard, secrets, struggling, upset on August 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yup, the title pretty much sums things up right now. Not doing too hot, great, or even so-so. Just trying to pull myself around by my hair and pretend everything is “hunky dory”. No, I am not okay. No, I have not told many people about it and I don’t know [...]
Chronic heaviness
Posted in angry, annoyed, anxiety, avoidance, boundaries, coping, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, family, feelings, friends, hugs, insomnia, pain, sleep, stress, tagged ankle, chronic pain, coworkers, emotional, heavy, jaw, teasing, teeth, walls on August 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I can’t sleep because I start worrying about having to wake up. Insomina lasts forever when the pain overwhelms me to the point where I can’t sleep. I become anxious and tired and “heavy”.
Right now I’m confused as to what day of the week it is. I’m always awake it [...]
