I made it to church this morning and faced my fear – which was possibly seeing my old boss there AND his wife, however my fear was much more focused on the boss himself… Seeing him made me physically need to vomit, so I avoided him. I didn’t see his wife at first, [...]
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Randomness
Posted in TMJ, crochet, exhausted, friends, frustrated, pain, sleep, stress, yarn, tagged blisters, cross, crosses, dry heaves, fair, feet, hands, laundry, learning, wrists on September 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I have worked 24 of the last 48 hours. I’m exhausted. I have blisters on my feet and my wrists BOTH hurt badly.
New job is awesome. Lots and lots and lots and lots to learn. I’m happy working there, yet still feeling apprehension over the entire situation. I’m [...]
Why I haven’t blogged…
Posted in angry, annoyed, church, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, friends, guilt, honesty, hugs, insomnia, loneliness, pain, relationships, scared, self hate, self-confidence, self-esteem, self-injury, shame, sick, sleep, stress, tired, understanding, work, yarn, tagged Aflac, ankle, bitch, blessings, Casting Crowns, checker, chronic pain, cross, evicted, fair, flooding, flu, fuck off, glasses, groceries, moody, pissed off, praise, Race for the Cure, rain, relay, sacker, schedule, Texas Tech, wrist on September 14, 2008 | 1 Comment »
… is relatively simple – I’ve been in a pissed off, angry at the f-ing world mood. Stress is killing me… but I haven’t cut since the day I got fired from Relay, so I have actually accomplished SOMETHING positive, maybe?!
Clearing crap up with Relay on Monday wasn’t the best of all ways to [...]
New new new new new
Posted in anorexia, braces, change, church, control, coping, damon brackets, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, friends, hugs, insomnia, orthodontics, scared, self-injury, self-worth, shame, stress, tired, weight, tagged call center, choir, God, new job, overwhelmed, print shop, singing, thoughts on September 10, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I quit the new job at the call center.
Took the job at the print shop.
Still work at the grocery store.
Changed my orthodontist appointment.
Having strong eating disorder thoughts.
My new job leans on my faith.
Haven’t cut in almost 2 weeks.
Struggling to sleep through the night.
I’m thankful for Spooky being back in my life.
Overwhelmed, tired, and exhausted.
Talked with [...]
2 Years
Posted in TMJ, angry, annoyed, anxiety, braces, church, damon brackets, deaf, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, finances, friends, frustrated, fuck off, guilt, honesty, hugs, loneliness, orthodontics, relationships, scared, school, self-injury, self-mutilation, self-worth, shame, stress, teaching, tired, unemployed, weight, tagged anniversary, apartment, cutting, fat, fear, hope, roommmate, skinny, writing on September 5, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I moved into my apartment 2yrs ago.
I started the job I no longer have, 2yrs ago.
I was skinny 2yrs ago.
I was relieved 2yrs ago.
I had a roommate 2yrs ago.
I was hopeful 2yrs ago.
I’m still in the same apartment now.
I no longer have the same job.
I’m really FAT now.
I am scared to death now.
I live alone, [...]
