I made it to church this morning and faced my fear – which was possibly seeing my old boss there AND his wife, however my fear was much more focused on the boss himself… Seeing him made me physically need to vomit, so I avoided him. I didn’t see his wife at first, [...]
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What the heck I’ve been up to…
Posted in braces, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, frustrated, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, recovery, relationships, scared, self-injury, stress, suicide, unemployed, work, tagged bills, cleaning, friendship, grocery store, new job, profanity, roommate, stitches on December 11, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Yeah, well… I’m a changed woman! My life has been more of a whirlwind these last few months than much of anything else. Not totally sure what to make of the mess I have made and others have made, but I’m trying to turn that around and focus a little more on faith.
We [...]
Why I haven’t blogged…
Posted in angry, annoyed, church, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, friends, guilt, honesty, hugs, insomnia, loneliness, pain, relationships, scared, self hate, self-confidence, self-esteem, self-injury, shame, sick, sleep, stress, tired, understanding, work, yarn, tagged Aflac, ankle, bitch, blessings, Casting Crowns, checker, chronic pain, cross, evicted, fair, flooding, flu, fuck off, glasses, groceries, moody, pissed off, praise, Race for the Cure, rain, relay, sacker, schedule, Texas Tech, wrist on September 14, 2008 | 1 Comment »
… is relatively simple – I’ve been in a pissed off, angry at the f-ing world mood. Stress is killing me… but I haven’t cut since the day I got fired from Relay, so I have actually accomplished SOMETHING positive, maybe?!
Clearing crap up with Relay on Monday wasn’t the best of all ways to [...]
2 Years
Posted in TMJ, angry, annoyed, anxiety, braces, church, damon brackets, deaf, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, finances, friends, frustrated, fuck off, guilt, honesty, hugs, loneliness, orthodontics, relationships, scared, school, self-injury, self-mutilation, self-worth, shame, stress, teaching, tired, unemployed, weight, tagged anniversary, apartment, cutting, fat, fear, hope, roommmate, skinny, writing on September 5, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I moved into my apartment 2yrs ago.
I started the job I no longer have, 2yrs ago.
I was skinny 2yrs ago.
I was relieved 2yrs ago.
I had a roommate 2yrs ago.
I was hopeful 2yrs ago.
I’m still in the same apartment now.
I no longer have the same job.
I’m really FAT now.
I am scared to death now.
I live alone, [...]
Between hell and hell
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, anxiety, bulimia, change, crochet, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, faith, finances, food, friends, honesty, self-injury, shame, sick, stress, suicide, tired, unemployed, work, tagged abandoned, cutting, fear, God, hell, job, obesity, starve, trust, vomit on September 3, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m unemployed, at least that is how I view myself (minus the grocery store), and I don’t know what I can do to change this situation — besides working at dead end positions with idiots!
When I came home last night, I literally collapsed and wanted to sob… and I did in fact cry. I [...]
