My last entry was actually a draft that I wrote up mid-week and thought I would publish — it makes me laugh now that I look at it/ read it! It was written on Wednesday, I think, as that was the first day I left work in complete tears… threatening to never come back [...]
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Week from hell…
Posted in angry, anxiety, boundaries, braces, control, faith, friends, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, recovery, relationships, self-injury, work, tagged debanding, emotions, Friday, God, hell, hygenist, Monday, music, orthodontist, pink eye, powerchains, sponsor, Sunday, telephone, Thursday, Tuesday, Wednesday on February 7, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Feeling scattered
Posted in anxiety, faith, feelings, frustrated, guilt, honesty, orthodontics, self-worth, shame, sick, stress, understanding, work, tagged chores, duty, email, hunger, ketosis, law office, lyrics, vomit on December 30, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Back to faith again… writing about it has made me want responses on faith, so I have used some of my recent blog entries as the inspiration for some emails. I have needed responses to my thoughts and feelings on faith from those who know me outside of these written words. I have [...]
2 Years
Posted in TMJ, angry, annoyed, anxiety, braces, church, damon brackets, deaf, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, finances, friends, frustrated, fuck off, guilt, honesty, hugs, loneliness, orthodontics, relationships, scared, school, self-injury, self-mutilation, self-worth, shame, stress, teaching, tired, unemployed, weight, tagged anniversary, apartment, cutting, fat, fear, hope, roommmate, skinny, writing on September 5, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I moved into my apartment 2yrs ago.
I started the job I no longer have, 2yrs ago.
I was skinny 2yrs ago.
I was relieved 2yrs ago.
I had a roommate 2yrs ago.
I was hopeful 2yrs ago.
I’m still in the same apartment now.
I no longer have the same job.
I’m really FAT now.
I am scared to death now.
I live alone, [...]
Between hell and hell
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, anxiety, bulimia, change, crochet, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, faith, finances, food, friends, honesty, self-injury, shame, sick, stress, suicide, tired, unemployed, work, tagged abandoned, cutting, fear, God, hell, job, obesity, starve, trust, vomit on September 3, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m unemployed, at least that is how I view myself (minus the grocery store), and I don’t know what I can do to change this situation — besides working at dead end positions with idiots!
When I came home last night, I literally collapsed and wanted to sob… and I did in fact cry. I [...]
Blessing and a curse
Posted in angry, anxiety, change, church, coping, depressed, faith, feelings, finances, friends, gratitude, guilt, self-injury, shame, stress, understanding, unemployed, work, tagged cry, cutting, God, Gustav, hurricane, job hunting, New Orleans, stability, tears, teenagers on August 31, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I made it to church today because I figured if I was going to work my feet into the ground, the least I could was walk on them into the place where I knew God could reach me. I cried the entire service.
I go to a Life Group with all adults and [...]
