My last entry was actually a draft that I wrote up mid-week and thought I would publish — it makes me laugh now that I look at it/ read it! It was written on Wednesday, I think, as that was the first day I left work in complete tears… threatening to never come back [...]
Archive for the ‘angry’ Category
Week from hell…
Posted in angry, anxiety, boundaries, braces, control, faith, friends, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, recovery, relationships, self-injury, work, tagged debanding, emotions, Friday, God, hell, hygenist, Monday, music, orthodontist, pink eye, powerchains, sponsor, Sunday, telephone, Thursday, Tuesday, Wednesday on February 7, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Quick lunch – not eating – blah
Posted in angry, anorexia, control, coping, food, friends, honesty, weight, work, tagged death, drinking water, druink, exercise, fat, hunger, law office, lunch, New Year's Eve, promotion, RSD, stomach, stupidity on December 31, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I came home on lunch rather than sitting in the break room. My mind is spinning, my thighs feel fat, and I’m starving. I’m doing pretty well with the no gluten and no soda’s while at work; water is even going down easier. Quiet time hasn’t really happened much besides listening to [...]
Starting over in 2009
Posted in angry, boundaries, change, coping, crochet, faith, friends, guilt, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, privacy, recovery, relationships, self-injury, self-worth, shame, stress, suicide, understanding, work, tagged Bible, cell phone, compassion, emergency room, future, grace, love, mistakes, scars, smile, stitches, vote on December 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Sometimes a sermon really gets to me and today I heard one of those sermons – it was straight to the point, no candy coating, and hit home in places I wasn’t quite ready to explore… yet I’m needing to explore… so I’m typing my thoughts out I can get a better grasp of them.
According [...]
Thinking about “moms”
Posted in angry, depressed, family, friends, honesty, hugs, love, relationships, tagged abuse, birth, bond, brother, connection, foster care, grandparents, massage therapy, mental illness, mom, mother, needs, sister, smoking, victim, women on December 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
… and how I often feel like I don’t have a real mom. I have ladies in my life who have played the part here and there, but I’ve never really had a mom. I’m grateful for those who have come and gone in my life and have helped in this way, but [...]
My little annoyances…
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, bulimia, eating disorder, food, fuck off, tagged fake, immature, password, protect on December 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Humpf… I had to make a rational decision today – to password protect the most *popular* entry in my journal because the fine print wasn’t being respected, muchless read, by the desperate assholes reading and following it like a book.
I don’t like to password protect ANYTHING on this blog. I would rather password [...]
Why I haven’t blogged…
Posted in angry, annoyed, church, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, friends, guilt, honesty, hugs, insomnia, loneliness, pain, relationships, scared, self hate, self-confidence, self-esteem, self-injury, shame, sick, sleep, stress, tired, understanding, work, yarn, tagged Aflac, ankle, bitch, blessings, Casting Crowns, checker, chronic pain, cross, evicted, fair, flooding, flu, fuck off, glasses, groceries, moody, pissed off, praise, Race for the Cure, rain, relay, sacker, schedule, Texas Tech, wrist on September 14, 2008 | 1 Comment »
… is relatively simple – I’ve been in a pissed off, angry at the f-ing world mood. Stress is killing me… but I haven’t cut since the day I got fired from Relay, so I have actually accomplished SOMETHING positive, maybe?!
Clearing crap up with Relay on Monday wasn’t the best of all ways to [...]
