I quit the new job at the call center.
Took the job at the print shop.
Still work at the grocery store.
Changed my orthodontist appointment.
Having strong eating disorder thoughts.
My new job leans on my faith.
Haven’t cut in almost 2 weeks.
Struggling to sleep through the night.
I’m thankful for Spooky being back in my life.
Overwhelmed, tired, and exhausted.
Talked with [...]
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New new new new new
Posted in anorexia, braces, change, church, control, coping, damon brackets, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, friends, hugs, insomnia, orthodontics, scared, self-injury, self-worth, shame, stress, tired, weight, tagged call center, choir, God, new job, overwhelmed, print shop, singing, thoughts on September 10, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
2 Years
Posted in TMJ, angry, annoyed, anxiety, braces, church, damon brackets, deaf, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, finances, friends, frustrated, fuck off, guilt, honesty, hugs, loneliness, orthodontics, relationships, scared, school, self-injury, self-mutilation, self-worth, shame, stress, teaching, tired, unemployed, weight, tagged anniversary, apartment, cutting, fat, fear, hope, roommmate, skinny, writing on September 5, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I moved into my apartment 2yrs ago.
I started the job I no longer have, 2yrs ago.
I was skinny 2yrs ago.
I was relieved 2yrs ago.
I had a roommate 2yrs ago.
I was hopeful 2yrs ago.
I’m still in the same apartment now.
I no longer have the same job.
I’m really FAT now.
I am scared to death now.
I live alone, [...]
I am not going to sleep until tomorrow
Posted in Damon System, braces, crochet, damon brackets, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, exhausted, frustrated, love, pain, sleep, stress, work, tagged afghan, bandana, braces, brackets, cheating, elastics, guilt, headache, hope, hunger, meeting, orthodontist, powerchains, rubber bands, supervisor, toothpaste on August 11, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
My supervisor got sick and called in, but didn’t call me, so I ended up at Relay to work my shift this morning – fart. I called her to make sure this was actually true and ended up waking her up… guilt trip for me… and now we are going to try to meet [...]
I have the gitters
Posted in Damon System, angry, anorexia, anxiety, braces, crochet, damon brackets, feelings, food, love, self-injury, sick, stress, weather, weight, work, tagged afghan, anorexia, braids, burning, encouragement, fat, gittery, hips, hygenist, job hunting, orthodontist, overbite, pill, powerchains, rain, recommendation, relay, sick, skinny, starve, supervisor, support, thin on August 11, 2008 | 2 Comments »
My orthodontist appointment is at 740a and it has been raining all night. The busses shouldn’t be late, so I’m not panicing yet… I am just biting on my brackets AGAIN, have jaw pain, and my teeth are overly sensitive. Even my hygenist was concerned. I really want a new powerchain [...]
I tried, some success
Posted in Damon System, anorexia, anxiety, avoidance, braces, change, control, coping, damon brackets, feelings, orthodontics, pain, self-confidence, tagged anorexic, braces, harm, pool, self-injury, swimming, swimsuit, urging on July 14, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I put on my bathing suit last night and went out to the pool. It was barely daylight and the pool was empty. It was really hard to do… harder than I imagined. I kept on feeling like I needed to throw up.
Someone upstairs had their door open, so it [...]
New elastics…
Posted in Damon System, TMJ, braces, damon brackets, orthodontics, sleep, stress, tagged braces, elastics, headache, rubber bands on July 1, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Okay, today was my THIRD emergency appointment in the last 2 weeks! They changed my elastic config and gave me stronger ones too — I now have double triangles (not doubled over, just 2 triangles) on my left side and a box on my right side.
This was probably the first visit where I noticed [...]
