I wrote earlier on faith, which felt liberating. After writing here, I then had enough of my cobwebs out to compose a heartfelt and honest email on faith to a friend — now all I must do is await her reply.
Anyhow, I didn’t really speak of any specific goals last time because… well… it [...]
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Some realistic goals for 2009
Posted in anorexia, boundaries, bulimia, change, control, crochet, eating disorder, faith, food, honesty, palm, recovery, self-confidence, self-injury, self-worth, weight, tagged 2009, caffeine, exercise, floss, gluten-free, goals, going green, quiet time, reflex sympathetic dystrophy, resolutions, RSD, soda pop, water on December 28, 2008 | 3 Comments »
Starting over in 2009
Posted in angry, boundaries, change, coping, crochet, faith, friends, guilt, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, privacy, recovery, relationships, self-injury, self-worth, shame, stress, suicide, understanding, work, tagged Bible, cell phone, compassion, emergency room, future, grace, love, mistakes, scars, smile, stitches, vote on December 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Sometimes a sermon really gets to me and today I heard one of those sermons – it was straight to the point, no candy coating, and hit home in places I wasn’t quite ready to explore… yet I’m needing to explore… so I’m typing my thoughts out I can get a better grasp of them.
According [...]
Randomness
Posted in TMJ, crochet, exhausted, friends, frustrated, pain, sleep, stress, yarn, tagged blisters, cross, crosses, dry heaves, fair, feet, hands, laundry, learning, wrists on September 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I have worked 24 of the last 48 hours. I’m exhausted. I have blisters on my feet and my wrists BOTH hurt badly.
New job is awesome. Lots and lots and lots and lots to learn. I’m happy working there, yet still feeling apprehension over the entire situation. I’m [...]
Why I haven’t blogged…
Posted in angry, annoyed, church, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, friends, guilt, honesty, hugs, insomnia, loneliness, pain, relationships, scared, self hate, self-confidence, self-esteem, self-injury, shame, sick, sleep, stress, tired, understanding, work, yarn, tagged Aflac, ankle, bitch, blessings, Casting Crowns, checker, chronic pain, cross, evicted, fair, flooding, flu, fuck off, glasses, groceries, moody, pissed off, praise, Race for the Cure, rain, relay, sacker, schedule, Texas Tech, wrist on September 14, 2008 | 1 Comment »
… is relatively simple – I’ve been in a pissed off, angry at the f-ing world mood. Stress is killing me… but I haven’t cut since the day I got fired from Relay, so I have actually accomplished SOMETHING positive, maybe?!
Clearing crap up with Relay on Monday wasn’t the best of all ways to [...]
Between hell and hell
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, anxiety, bulimia, change, crochet, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, faith, finances, food, friends, honesty, self-injury, shame, sick, stress, suicide, tired, unemployed, work, tagged abandoned, cutting, fear, God, hell, job, obesity, starve, trust, vomit on September 3, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m unemployed, at least that is how I view myself (minus the grocery store), and I don’t know what I can do to change this situation — besides working at dead end positions with idiots!
When I came home last night, I literally collapsed and wanted to sob… and I did in fact cry. I [...]
Jet-lag
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, anxiety, avoidance, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, friends, frustrated, fuck off, pain, school, sleep, stress, teaching, weight, work, writing, tagged bully, career, carpal tunnel, day, denial, depressed, diet, education, fair, graduate school, greatest virtue, grocery store, guys, jet lag, job interview, night, orthodontist, patience, physical space, powerade, practice, references, relay, sleeping, talk, wrist on August 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I haven’t been writing or responding to comments – muchless been reading other people’s blogs, so don’t take it too personally. I haven’t been sleeping either. I haven’t been doing much besides spinning my mental wheels. It is taking a lot out of me to even sit down and attempt to write [...]
Randomness
Posted in anorexia, braces, bulimia, change, control, coping, crochet, eating disorder, faith, feelings, food, friends, gratitude, insomnia, lessons learned, love, self-injury, sleep, stress, weight, tagged afghan, apartment, beauty, braces, community, crochet, diet, elastics, floss, grocery store, guys, lease, marriage, originality, pattern, purging, quality, rubber bands, sacker, scars, school, sleep, sleep deprivation, sour, sour candy, swimming, teacher, tears, teeth, walls on August 22, 2008 | 1 Comment »
- I think, well I hope I think, I have come up with the dreamest afghan to enter the local fair with. The pattern is complicated, yet simple in technique (except for the detailing), and is culturally significant. The theme is relative to the community right now and I believe it will stand [...]
