I have viral pink eye and some viral upper respiratory infection to top it off… yucky. I could scratch my eyes out they burn so much! I can’t stop coughing and I can’t even smell the Vicks Vapor Rub I have all over my chest and neck.
I missed tons of work last week [...]
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Quick lunch – not eating – blah
Posted in angry, anorexia, control, coping, food, friends, honesty, weight, work, tagged death, drinking water, druink, exercise, fat, hunger, law office, lunch, New Year's Eve, promotion, RSD, stomach, stupidity on December 31, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I came home on lunch rather than sitting in the break room. My mind is spinning, my thighs feel fat, and I’m starving. I’m doing pretty well with the no gluten and no soda’s while at work; water is even going down easier. Quiet time hasn’t really happened much besides listening to [...]
Some realistic goals for 2009
Posted in anorexia, boundaries, bulimia, change, control, crochet, eating disorder, faith, food, honesty, palm, recovery, self-confidence, self-injury, self-worth, weight, tagged exercise, water, floss, RSD, reflex sympathetic dystrophy, goals, 2009, resolutions, soda pop, caffeine, quiet time, gluten-free, going green on December 28, 2008 | 3 Comments »
I wrote earlier on faith, which felt liberating. After writing here, I then had enough of my cobwebs out to compose a heartfelt and honest email on faith to a friend — now all I must do is await her reply.
Anyhow, I didn’t really speak of any specific goals last time because… well… it [...]
My little annoyances…
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, bulimia, eating disorder, food, fuck off, tagged fake, immature, password, protect on December 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Humpf… I had to make a rational decision today – to password protect the most *popular* entry in my journal because the fine print wasn’t being respected, muchless read, by the desperate assholes reading and following it like a book.
I don’t like to password protect ANYTHING on this blog. I would rather password [...]
New new new new new
Posted in anorexia, braces, change, church, control, coping, damon brackets, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, friends, hugs, insomnia, orthodontics, scared, self-injury, self-worth, shame, stress, tired, weight, tagged call center, choir, God, new job, overwhelmed, print shop, singing, thoughts on September 10, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I quit the new job at the call center.
Took the job at the print shop.
Still work at the grocery store.
Changed my orthodontist appointment.
Having strong eating disorder thoughts.
My new job leans on my faith.
Haven’t cut in almost 2 weeks.
Struggling to sleep through the night.
I’m thankful for Spooky being back in my life.
Overwhelmed, tired, and exhausted.
Talked with [...]
Between hell and hell
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, anxiety, bulimia, change, crochet, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, faith, finances, food, friends, honesty, self-injury, shame, sick, stress, suicide, tired, unemployed, work, tagged abandoned, cutting, fear, God, hell, job, obesity, starve, trust, vomit on September 3, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m unemployed, at least that is how I view myself (minus the grocery store), and I don’t know what I can do to change this situation — besides working at dead end positions with idiots!
When I came home last night, I literally collapsed and wanted to sob… and I did in fact cry. I [...]
