I’m in a bad mood today. I woke up feeling dread and for some reason could not shake it, even at church. I sat and cried.
I was supposed to give my sponsor my self-injury tools this morning. I brought them with me and then didn’t have the courage to approach her after [...]
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Rather perplexed today
Posted in church, recovery, tagged depleted, life, sponsor, suicide on February 8, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
It’s been a rough day… Talked with my sponsor a lit at church today and it helped, but praying helped even more. She called me out on my garbage, like always, and so at least we have something to talk about tomorrow – haha!!
I’m not in a good place right now. [...]
A new trigger…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, church, control, coping, faith, fuck off, guilt, honesty, lessons learned, pain, recovery, relationships, self-injury, self-mutilation, shame, stress, tired, tagged AA, blood, celebration, church, cutter, emergency room, grace, scars, self-harm, stitches, vagina on October 26, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It has been one hell of a past three weeks and now I’m almost not sure what to do because well, it appears as though fertility is my latest trigger – actually, it has to do with the blood my body is passing as result of me not getting pregnant this month. I cannot [...]
Quiet
Posted in church, eating disorder, faith, self-injury, sick, tagged altar, Bible, binge, breathing, change, cut, heart, holy spirit, knot, music, peace, profanity, quiet, solitude, stomach, take action, unexpected, urges, waiting, Wednesday on October 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I have felt quiet, quiet on the inside – lately… like since last Wednesday, which was when I had a conversation with C that I believe might be changing my life. For the first time I can remember, I didn’t totally shut out what she was allowing God to say through her. I [...]
Why I haven’t blogged…
Posted in angry, annoyed, church, crochet, depressed, discouraged, exhausted, faith, feelings, finances, friends, guilt, honesty, hugs, insomnia, loneliness, pain, relationships, scared, self hate, self-confidence, self-esteem, self-injury, shame, sick, sleep, stress, tired, understanding, work, yarn, tagged Aflac, ankle, bitch, blessings, Casting Crowns, checker, chronic pain, cross, evicted, fair, flooding, flu, fuck off, glasses, groceries, moody, pissed off, praise, Race for the Cure, rain, relay, sacker, schedule, Texas Tech, wrist on September 14, 2008 | 1 Comment »
… is relatively simple – I’ve been in a pissed off, angry at the f-ing world mood. Stress is killing me… but I haven’t cut since the day I got fired from Relay, so I have actually accomplished SOMETHING positive, maybe?!
Clearing crap up with Relay on Monday wasn’t the best of all ways to [...]
