When I don’t write, it usually means I’m doing rather poorly… and when I do come back to write, it usually means the tide has turned. Today, right now, at this very moment – yes this is true.
- My friend lost her mom a couple of weeks ago.
- A former coworker of mine died [...]
Archive for the ‘change’ Category
Life has not been fair lately…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, change, depressed, faith, friends, gratitude, honesty, love, pain, recovery, sick, stress, tired, work, tagged anger, Christian, fever, paralegal, sponsor, writing on January 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Starting over “take two”
Posted in change, recovery, tagged giving up, Jesus, process, resolutions on January 1, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Today is New Year’s Day – some uncanny offical “starting over day”. Resolutions made from days before are now put into full action; everything is supposedly different and determination is stronger than ever. Today is a physical marker for change, whether or not we are fully ready to embrace it… muchless fulfill it.
When [...]
Some realistic goals for 2009
Posted in anorexia, boundaries, bulimia, change, control, crochet, eating disorder, faith, food, honesty, palm, recovery, self-confidence, self-injury, self-worth, weight, tagged 2009, caffeine, exercise, floss, gluten-free, goals, going green, quiet time, reflex sympathetic dystrophy, resolutions, RSD, soda pop, water on December 28, 2008 | 3 Comments »
I wrote earlier on faith, which felt liberating. After writing here, I then had enough of my cobwebs out to compose a heartfelt and honest email on faith to a friend — now all I must do is await her reply.
Anyhow, I didn’t really speak of any specific goals last time because… well… it [...]
Starting over in 2009
Posted in angry, boundaries, change, coping, crochet, faith, friends, guilt, honesty, lessons learned, orthodontics, privacy, recovery, relationships, self-injury, self-worth, shame, stress, suicide, understanding, work, tagged Bible, cell phone, compassion, emergency room, future, grace, love, mistakes, scars, smile, stitches, vote on December 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Sometimes a sermon really gets to me and today I heard one of those sermons – it was straight to the point, no candy coating, and hit home in places I wasn’t quite ready to explore… yet I’m needing to explore… so I’m typing my thoughts out I can get a better grasp of them.
According [...]
New new new new new
Posted in anorexia, braces, change, church, control, coping, damon brackets, eating disorder, exhausted, faith, friends, hugs, insomnia, orthodontics, scared, self-injury, self-worth, shame, stress, tired, weight, tagged call center, choir, God, new job, overwhelmed, print shop, singing, thoughts on September 10, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I quit the new job at the call center.
Took the job at the print shop.
Still work at the grocery store.
Changed my orthodontist appointment.
Having strong eating disorder thoughts.
My new job leans on my faith.
Haven’t cut in almost 2 weeks.
Struggling to sleep through the night.
I’m thankful for Spooky being back in my life.
Overwhelmed, tired, and exhausted.
Talked with [...]
Changes
Posted in braces, change, control, deaf, exhausted, faith, friends, love, privacy, scared, school, self-injury, self-worth, sick, sleep, stress, teaching, tired, unemployed, work, tagged best friend, call center, deaf, graduate school, high school, new job, relay, scars, worry on September 8, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I am going to turn in my equipment and get my final paycheck today at Relay. I know I don’t work there anymore, but today will be my last day ever to go there… until I file wrongful termination and get our little lady friend Sonya fired.
I called the school I interviewed with and [...]
Between hell and hell
Posted in angry, annoyed, anorexia, anxiety, bulimia, change, crochet, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, faith, finances, food, friends, honesty, self-injury, shame, sick, stress, suicide, tired, unemployed, work, tagged abandoned, cutting, fear, God, hell, job, obesity, starve, trust, vomit on September 3, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m unemployed, at least that is how I view myself (minus the grocery store), and I don’t know what I can do to change this situation — besides working at dead end positions with idiots!
When I came home last night, I literally collapsed and wanted to sob… and I did in fact cry. I [...]
