When I don’t write, it usually means I’m doing rather poorly… and when I do come back to write, it usually means the tide has turned. Today, right now, at this very moment – yes this is true.
- My friend lost her mom a couple of weeks ago.
- A former coworker of mine died [...]
Archive for the ‘Celebrate Recovery’ Category
Life has not been fair lately…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, change, depressed, faith, friends, gratitude, honesty, love, pain, recovery, sick, stress, tired, work, tagged anger, Christian, fever, paralegal, sponsor, writing on January 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
A new trigger…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, church, control, coping, faith, fuck off, guilt, honesty, lessons learned, pain, recovery, relationships, self-injury, self-mutilation, shame, stress, tired, tagged AA, blood, celebration, church, cutter, emergency room, grace, scars, self-harm, stitches, vagina on October 26, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It has been one hell of a past three weeks and now I’m almost not sure what to do because well, it appears as though fertility is my latest trigger – actually, it has to do with the blood my body is passing as result of me not getting pregnant this month. I cannot [...]
My “f” words…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, anorexia, church, depressed, eating disorder, faith, family, feelings, finances, food, friends, stress, work, tagged anorexic, bank account, Bible, Celebrate Recovery, christian music, complications, decisions, dehydration, eating disorder, extra hours, faith, family, family problems, family structure, fat, finances, food, groceries, job hunting, medical bills, memories, money, ramen, recovery, starving, struggling, work on July 26, 2008 | 5 Comments »
FAMILY:
This topic stresses me out. It makes me nervous. It makes my stomach turn over. It brings back memories and the memories aren’t ones I want to bathe myself in, fall asleep in, and find comfort in. Family is something I struggle with, as my concept of family is skewed. [...]
Binging hurts my wallet, stomach, and spirit
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, bulimia, change, control, coping, depressed, discouraged, eating disorder, faith, feelings, finances, food, frustrated, lessons learned, pain, self-injury, stress, work, tagged bills, binge, binging, budget, Celebrate Recovery, confusion, dentist, doctor, empty, fat, fear, finances, hours, invisible, low, masculine, minimum wage, overwhelmed, PTO, relay, RSD, stomach, tummy, ugly, unattractive on July 23, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I have to stop binging or I’ll lose everything! I miscalculated my income this month and then I binged a little bit too much and I had some unexpected expenses come up. Yikes, it’ll be tight – but I’ll get through.
I have to stop doing this to myself. I am [...]
Uncomfortable and random
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, Damon System, TMJ, braces, coping, faith, finances, food, friends, orthodontics, relationships, self-injury, stress, weight, work, tagged braces, Celebrate Recovery, fat, finances, grocery store, self-injury, sleeping, snoring, weight on July 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I went to a Celebrate Recovery meeting tonight. I actually liked it! They do things differently from the previous group I attended, but just being there and working through the questions and talking about stuff with the principles in place — well, it felt good. It felt right and it reminded me [...]
Pain
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, Damon System, TMJ, braces, change, control, coping, depressed, discouraged, faith, family, feelings, food, friends, frustrated, hugs, orthodontics, recovery, sleep, stress, weight, work, tagged braces, Celebrate Recovery, cry, diet, family, friendship, nerve pain, RSD, sleep deprivation, spirit, stomach pain, support system, thoughts, time, weight on July 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
HEAD
- TMJ/ TMD
- possible trigeminal nerve pain
- maybe RSD?
- can’t get into my ortho until Monday afternoon, unless someone cancels today
- severe pain in head, neck, face, jaw, ear, shoulders… on left side (nerve pain)
- braces might be the cause, not sure, but will rule braces out FIRST
HEART
- friendships
- my thoughts
- self problems… confidence, esteem, [...]
Going to church this morning…
Posted in Celebrate Recovery, anxiety, avoidance, change, church, faith, feelings, friends, recovery, self-worth, tagged apprehension, Celebrate Recovery, communion, God, music, recovery, scripture, uncomfortable on July 6, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I haven’t gone in maybe three or four weeks, for various weeks. Last week it was absolutely because of my migraine, however I can’t use that as an excuse this week — reality is that this week might be my last chance to go for a couple weeks. I start my new job [...]
