I didn’t outwardly binge yesterday, so that was a good thing, however I did not keep within my calorie goal range either — I didn’t really fail, but I didn’t really succeed. Today, however will be different.
I worked 5.75hrs at the grocery store. My feet are killing me. I had a half a can of diet coke while on break and now I am nursing a vitamin water with b and potassium. I need something with some nutrients, but I am not physically up to eating. My foot and ankle are KILLING ME! They hurt my whole frickin’ shift!! I know better than to try and eat right now, as the drink is barely staying down… gross…
When I got home tonight, I called a friend from Church (S) and spoke with her for a few minutes. Told her I wouldn’t be able to make it on Sunday because I had to work and I also wanted to let her know why I called her on Sunday evening, even though she apparently never got my call or message on her cell phone (which I do believe, as her phone tends to be fickle). It was great sharing with her about how much I love my new job! She shops there and told me she might see me on Sunday morning if she decides to get donuts 
Hehe!
I also called my supervisor at Relay and told her I wouldn’t be in tomorrow. We had spoken on Monday afternoon and I promised her I would try and make it in sometime this week so we could sit down and talk. She is going to have back surgery the middle of August and will be out for quite a while, as she’ll be having an additional operation 6weeks later. I accidently woke her up when I called, even though it was about 910p, and I told her I would leave her note as to which day I would be coming in next week. I am really going to aim for Thursday, as that is the day of the Perfect Attendance Lunch and yay for me, I actually made it a full 3 months without missing a day!! I really adore my supervisor at Relay, even though it has been rough these last few months. I don’t blame her for being sick and in the beginning, I was rather ticked off — but now I know a little more about what is going on, especially with the chronic pain, and I feel more understanding than I do anything else. She is someone I respect and Relay hasn’t been the same without her.
Today, I am trying to stay much under my goal for yesterday. I am going to do a light fast, aiming for less than 500 calories within a 24hr period. I’m in pain and nauseated, so I have two unfortunate incentives. I don’t feel like taking a pain pill, but I have them in my bag in case I need them and I might just take one tomorrow or later tonight if the pain gets to the point where homicide is likely.
Tomorrow, I work 10a-3p at the grocery store. This means I will get home about 620a, then sleep until 9. Get up, shower, and work from 10a-3pm… then go home and sleep until 1030p, get up and shower, then go into work… where I will work from probably 12a-1030a, unless I PTO my last 2hrs, which is likely if the pain in my ankle is rather severe.
Right now, I feel like puking. My foot is aching, throbing, and COLD – stupid RSD… I am physically hungry, grossly fat, I’m PMS-ing, and I’m so grateful I have the job at the grocery store to look forward to!! Okay, now to start some laundry and get a couple other things ready for work.
