My weight and food problems are getting a little crazy. My clothes just don’t fit. I am not motivated enough to exercise. I am not motivated to eat, but I do anyway. I also not motivated to purge… much… and well, these stupid braces… argh…
This morning would have been so easy to purge, puke. I kept on holding back and holding back and eventually I just fell asleep. GERD, stress, and allergies make purging easy.
I have this roll of skin on my tummy that urks me. I need to get off my butt and exercise. I sure wish crochetting burned more calories than it did…
Working on a new blanket and already have 1/3 of the squares done for it. Another left-over-yarn-blanket. This one is made of granny squares, 5 rounds each, 5in squares, and 11×14 in terms of total squares. Each square is edged in black to pull it all together. Right now, I just have bags of squares sitting in my living room and a clothes hamper full of yarn. I am debating whether or not to give this blanket away when it is finished.
It has rained a lot lately. God and His angels must be crying for our fallen world. We have literally had over 3inches of rain in the last 24hrs!! WOW!!! The wind, lightening, and thunder have made the nights frightening — my days and my work nights.
I adore getting off at 6am. Tomorrow is my first ever scheduled 10hr day and I am apprehensive, yet looking forward to it at the very same time. Long day, but shorter mornings… so it will all be worth it. I might even get to take some REAL CALLS??!? Stupid Facebook Sprint IP calls still need to go to hell, oh the misery of ignorance and boredom and drunk stupid idiots.
A friend of mine and I have decided to start learning some basic ASL. We are trying to put phrases together that we can use on the floor, like “Fart call” and “Fraudulent call” and other silly or serious phrases. Some callers are just FARTS, especially the prank kids.
My friend has her breast cancer surgery on Friday, right before Mother’s Day.
I can’t get into my ortho until next Monday and I am still biting on my brackets. I am also concerned because I have this funny arch in my top jaw that looks unnatural now. I feel like my front teeth are being pulled up and forward, giving me a thrusted facial appearance.
Found the link-up between my digital camera and computer — YAYAYA — I can take pictures now because I also found my batteries and charger.
Finances are still screwy and it will be another tight month, but I’ll make it. I made a huge purchase a few months ago that I haven’t taken full advantage of and I still have yet to file my taxes. I need to be a little more responsible and just get on a roll… letting things waste and not using them isn’t showing the value I place any investment… which is yet another reason I am working to use up my scrap yarn for good.
My sleep cycle is messed up. I tend to nap during the day, sometimes. Overall, I am just sleep deprived and scattered. My brain is on overload. Stress is getting to me – not sure how to cope now that I don’t give into my cutting impulses anymore… and it has been 17weeks since I last cut, too!
I am also finding that I miss some of my friends on the day-shift. I only see a few of them on Saturdays and I don’t work on Sundays, so I really do miss them. The night shift is small, which I like a lot, but I still miss some of my daytime friends.
Work has gone to hell in a hand basket. Our center manager is really making some serious mistakes. She is playing favorites and not following policy. Her days are numbered and she doesn’t even know it! Everyone wants her behind out of there because she has let everything go to her head, instead of acting rationally and professionally — it is as if she suddenly forgot what it is like to be an agent. She needs to be firm and loving, not a total bitch.
